How Depression Fatigue Is Different Than Feeling Tired

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Today, I want to sleep.

To luxuriate in the endless bliss of nothingness. I want to be free from physical pain. Free from exhaustion. I don’t want to feel worried or anxious or guilty or afraid. I don’t want to be lost and weary. I just want to rest. To slip into eternal, blissful rest.

My body is tired. I am fit and well, but I am physically exhausted. There is no reason. It just is.

My soul is tired. There is no reason. It just is.

I am not tired, I am fatigued. Fatigue is a weariness that sinks deep into every pore of my being. Fatigue is not cured by a few hours sleep. I don’t wake feeling rested, I wake feeling exactly the same as I did when I went to sleep. I wake feeling weary.2

I don’t feel particularly depressed or anxious. I don’t feel sad or teary or stressed or worried, no more than any other day at least. I just don’t want to be. I don’t feel anything much today. I’m just terribly, terribly weary.

Today I need to spend time searching and applying for work, we are in dire financial straits and I must find a job. Today, I need to clean out the spare bedroom so my much beloved and sorely missed firstborn child can move back in for the next six months. Today, I need to clean and tidy. To write more articles. To follow up on my business plan. Contact friends, wash the car and sort out my paperwork. I have no will or energy to do anything.

Today, I want to sleep.

Source:https://themighty.com/2017/04/depression-always-tired-fatigue/

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